I had an amazing weekend full of God’s love, his grace, and his mercy. I was so very blessed to be able to be in His presence with so many amazing women this weekend at the ladies retreat. God used us to speak and encourage each other. Many tears, many deep and meaningful hugs, and so many laughs . I had the opportunity to share on Saturday night. After listening to Penny worship our God so beautifully one line from a song stuck in my heart: “There is Reason for every Season”.
In my childhood I never knew Jesus as my Saviour. Growing up I never went to church or read the bible, I never even knew any stories from the bible. I struggled in school with learning disabilities and found myself choosing to skip school to go party and do drugs. I thought I had so many friends but when I found myself pregnant at the ripe old age of 15 I soon realized how alone I really was. After I had my son I soon went back to partying and drugs . When my son turned 2 my dad passed away from a accident at work . I looked to drugs to heal my pain . When I was 19 I found out that I was having another baby, I was still single, still unhappy and felt so alone at times. In my darkest days I stole money for drugs had meaningless sex with people I didn’t care about and knew they didn’t care for me.
October 21st 2003 I was out at the bar when I met a handsome man named Rob .We spent two nights together before moving in together . We were married March 26th 2004 . We welcomed our baby girl December 15th 2005 . My husband loved me, I had three healthy children and yet I was still unhappy I carried around with me shame and guilt from my past . I sometimes even wondered how Rob could love someone like me.
Our life brought us to Spruce Grove, and for some “reason” we decided to go to the Spruce Grove Alliance Church. On our fourth time attending the pastor who was preaching asked everyone to hold out their hands and visualize holding any hurt, any burdens, anything that was heavy in our hearts. He explained how we don’t need to carry these burdens. I remember holding so much weight. I closed my eyes and listened to the music and tears started welling up in my eyes. All the feelings of shame and guilt I was holding there in my hands, then He said when you are ready lift it all up to God he will take it from you. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I lifted up my hands and felt all the weight I had been carrying disappear. Tears flowed down my cheeks and I left church dancing that day. My life changed after that day, I now never felt alone and realized how loved I had always been.
God is working in my life daily teaching me so much about who I am in him. Thank you God for this weekend full of testimonies where we can trust in you to feel not judged but loved. You are an amazing God.
To my beautiful sisters in Christ:
And so encourage one another and help one and other, just as you are now doing.
Shared by Jenn. S.
Thank you for giving Jenn the courage to share her personal life with all of us. I thank you for the work you have done in her life and the work you continue to do in her life. I pray that you use each word as you intend and that it be a conduit for your work God. Please fill Jenn today, fill her up so that she may feel encouraged and protected by anything that might come against her. Her words are courageous and bold and they speak of You and your sovereignty. Praise be to you our Father. Thank you…In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.